I had a big breakthrough in therapy last week and all my journaling assignments kept taking me back to our relationship. I know we agreed that my being 12 years older than you wasn’t a big deal (and maybe it wasn’t) but last week’s session and inquiry revealed that it is a big deal for Read More…
An interesting thing happened the other day. Bimpi and I were strolling to the Chinese place down my street and it grew really cold. As we hurried back into my house, I put on a sweater and she asked if I had another. Before I could answer, her eyes and mine met your sweater hanging Read More…
Last night, I dreamt I was pregnant with your child. The irony or is it suppressed memory? I remember being pregnant with your child – what I thought was going to be our first child – and wishing you’d want it as much as I did. The dream felt so real, that I almost felt Read More…
Happy New Year. You are probably wondering why I am writing you again as the last letter was supposed to be the last one. It was. And I meant it when I wrote it. At the time, it felt like the best way to say goodbye and finally close our chapter in my mind and Read More…
Dear Ex-Boyfriend, This will be the last letter I write to you. As the year draws to a close, I am drawing many things to a close in my life too. Last night I was thinking about all that’s behind me and also all that’s in front of me when it dawned on me that Read More…
Dear Ex BF, I just left my office end-of-year party and you are on my mind again. Actually you have been on my mind all day. It started this morning as I got ready. I couldn’t help but think about the last was-of-year party I invited you to. Do you remember that night? The one Read More…
Dear Ex-Boyfriend, I had a major breakthrough in therapy this week. Not like my therapy journey is any of your business but this particular breakthrough has to do with us…. Well, with you. It has to do with you. I have been angry at you and for the longest time, I have blocked out any Read More…
Dear Ex-Boyfriend, I was at the store picking out a new Christmas tree yesterday when I remembered the first and last Christmas I spent with you and your family. I had planned for that holiday more than I had ever planned for any holiday. I wanted everything to be perfect. I guess I hoped to Read More…
I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately and I can’t seem to move past one question – was it you or was it me? I know we have moved on (or maybe it’s just you who’s moved on) and I should probably let it all go but sometimes, especially when I can’t move past Read More…
It’s been a while since I have allowed myself to really think about you and today as I begin this letter, I am calling back memories of what used to be, what could have been and what may never be. You are married now. For the second time, nonetheless. I couldn’t stop looking at the Read More…